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Twin brothers Brian and Matt Walker went to live with their mother’s brother after the death of their parents at an early age. Brian is still wracked with the guilt he carries around from a young age and sees the world through a distorted lens of self-loathing. When he meets a sexy and interested college-aged guy at the beginning of his senior year of high school, he may hTwin brothers Brian and Matt Walker went to live with their mother’s brother after the death of their parents at an early age. Brian is still wracked with the guilt he carries around from a young age and sees the world through a distorted lens of self-loathing. When he meets a sexy and interested college-aged guy at the beginning of his senior year of high school, he may have finally found someone who can help him escape his mundane existence.Matt has his life all planned out -- he longs for a solid career in journalism after graduating college. But his tenuous hold on family life threatens his dreams of independence, as does the attentions of a closeted new transfer to their school.Can Matt pull away enough from his family to come into his own? And will Brian finally get to grips with his past and allow his twin to chase his own happiness?...

Title : Twice the Hands to Hold
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ISBN : 9781511972659
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Number of Pages : 280 Pages
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Twice the Hands to Hold Reviews

  • Joseph Tonlet
    2019-06-09 06:58

    Full disclosure: I know the author of this book personally and consider him a close FB friend. And it was indeed due to said friendship that I picked up Twice the Hands to Hold.Another admission, this is a book I'd consider far from my wheelhouse. My go-to reads tend to be much darker, grittier, and I admit, depraved. This book, on the other hand, is definitely what I'd consider sweet.That said, I enjoyed the hell out of it! The main character's relationships, their history, and their quest for happiness and fulfillment grabbed me within the first few pages and didn't let go...even after I'd finished the book.If well-written characters and interesting storylines are your thing (oh and handsome twins *wink*) then do yourself a favor and pickup Mr. Stevens' Twice the Hands to Hold, you'll be really glad you did.Peace,

  • Vanessa
    2019-05-18 08:05

    So very excited for this author and for this release. Can't wait for the world to meet Matt and Brian!! Beautiful coming of age story about love, loss, and family. <3

  • Truuss
    2019-06-17 07:57

    That was a very impressive story. It was smooth written... Really very enjoyable. It pulled me in and touched me deeply. It was warm, sweet, funny, realistic, sensitive and heartbreaking. Give us a look in the life of three guys. A twin Brian and Matt and their uncle Jake.We have a look into their personal lifes and how they handle and co-operate. At a young age they lost their parents in a car accident. Jake, self a young man, took custody and we see them grow up together.Their story and personalities are convincing. At some point devastating, I really stopped reading to cry and collect myself. The way their story is written.... full of love and compassion.They loved and cared about each other in such a deep way. It hard to come between a twin but a some point Brian find in Oliver his partner, Matt find his James and Jake found his Henry.I so hope that Brian, Matt and Jake will speak into the author's ears and tell him how their lifes continues. I'm so not done and finished with them.

  • JustJen
    2019-05-20 05:07

    4.5 star review by The Blogger Girls.This was such a pleasant surprise and wonderful coming of age story. I don’t normally read them, but this one didn’t take long to pull me in and keep me turning the pages.These boys have it pretty good now, even though it was a rough start losing their parents at such a young age. Their gay uncle stepped up to raise them though, and he’s done a fine job up to this point. The boys certainly don’t make it easy for him, but then, very few teenagers do.Matt and Brian are twins who are pretty much free to be themselves. Matt is gay and out but more the geek of the two. Brian is a bi jock, star of the football team. They are both mostly accepted at school, but there are other issues they face along the way.The three of them have been a very close family, with Matt and Brian sharing the twin bond as well. With college looming ever so quickly in their future, things are sure to change. They are hoping to go to the same school, but certain things have to happen for that to become a reality. Brian allows his fears to affect some poor decisions, and he ends up in somewhat of a downward spiral. Matt is interested in another boy, but that has its challenges as well. All of these things seem to be putting space between the two. Brian is most worried about all of this as he feels his brother slipping away from him. The two are close, very close, and while they do fool around some, things are never really pushed as over the line as I expected them to go.This is also the story of Jake, the uncle who has basically put his life on hold to raise his sister’s boys. It’s about him finding love again with someone from his past and accepting that it is ok for him to have it in his life now. Again, the boys are lucky to have such wonderful and caring role models in their lives. I loved seeing this aspect as well.This was very well written and pulled me right into the lives of these young men. It is sweet and loving, yet heartbreaking and sad at times. But, through it all, I had a feeling of wanting to see these boys journey through everything and find happiness at the end. Again, I don’t often read these types of stories, so when I do, and it works and leaves me with a total sense of enjoyment, that is saying quite a bit. Job well done, Louis.

  • Tounorris Walker
    2019-05-23 10:11

    This was a well written book! The characters are realistic & likable! This is my first book with twins. I loved that the book was written with POV from all the characters! I laughed & cried! This is my first book from this author but will not be my last! I want a book 2! Without giving away the book, it's a great read & a sexy as hell treat!

  • Simply Just Jen
    2019-06-15 05:59

    Twice The Hands to Hold..I was given a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review****This is a beautiful read. I think I was caught off guard by Mr. Stevens with this one. I was not expecting this wonderful coming of age story. The characters are so masterfully developed and will stay in your heart and mind for days after your done reading their amazing story. There is most definitely some gut wrenching moments in this book and you will feel every bit of the emotions that just seem to grip at your heart strings for hours. It is story about twins Brian and Matt who have had a tough life brought on by the tragic loss of their parents at a young age. The twins are starting their senior year in high school and are trying to figure out just where they are going to be after school is finished. Brian is the easy going athlete who just can't seem to stay our of trouble even though his heart is always in the right place when he makes those bad decisions. He is so passionate and is the big softie deep down. He is struggling with knowing that in a few months his family life may change as Matt may possibly be living at another college than him. He seems to need reassuring that just because life may bring different paths to both he and his twin that the bond and closeness they share will never change. Of course he is truly the vulnerable one and I fell in love with him very early in this adventure.Matt is quiet but confident and so smart. He may be the quiet one but he never denies or hides just who he is. I loved that about him. He knows he is gay and he is fine with it. He also knows that its about time for him to maybe fall in love. He knows Brian has already had many experiences but he has never just gone their. He seems to be the one that needs to make sure Brian is in a good place before he just jumps in and goes for something. Its actually great because Brian comes across as the strong one but it really is Matt who balances him. Matt just personifies the calm in the family. While he definitely goes through some tough times he seems to be able to deal with everything with maturity and poise.Finally there is Uncle Jake who has raised both boys since his sister's death. I loved his strength in this story. You never hear him complaining about having to sacrifice so much of his own life to raise Brian and Matt. Jake is trying to come to terms with possibly having "empty nest syndrome" and is stepping into the dating pool once again. Jake is firm and holds these boys together with steady hand for sure. He knows each of his boys to the tee. They may be able to fool him every now in then but in the end Jake just reels them in. Jake is struggling with what every parent goes through... "Did I do it right? Are they going to be good adults? Can I change anything before its to late?" I know I ask these questions daily for sure as a mother. This book is not a romance. It's a unique glimpse into what family should mean today. It is a wonderful coming of age story and while it may touch on some tough topics at times, in the end it just boils down to family and the bonds that make it unbreakable. Louis Stevens did an excellent job writing this epic tale that managed to embed itself in my head for days after finishing. I smiled. I cried. I got angry. I cried some more. I absolutely loved this story. If you are looking for a different lovely read then don't miss this one. I promise it is so worth the read.

  • KT Spille
    2019-06-17 07:01

    Went into this book expecting some taboo, which there is a little, but found a very sweet, sometimes angsty story. Orphaned twins living with their uncle, who has nothing but love for them. All of them trying to build relationships and afraid to face love outside of their little family. I fell in love with Brian, Jake and Matt. I want to know what happens for them nextLouis has created such a beautiful story and family, I'm eager to read more by him.I also read the alternative ending. I think had the whole book been the taboo relationship I would have liked the alternative ending, but it's different then the relationship built through the book so it was a little jarring. Both the book and alternative ending were amazing, just didn't totally fit together for me.Loved the book, one that really stands out in all the books I've read this year.

  • Claire Potterton
    2019-06-13 09:56

    I think I liked this book. The writing is beautiful, the characters are so detailed and real, the story is by turns, heart warming, heart breaking, sad and hopeful, and the ending is beautiful. The relationship between Brian and Matt at times perturbed me, I think because I am a mother to twin boys. I did like this book, but there were elements of it that made me uncomfortable.

  • Sue bowdley
    2019-06-06 09:16

    Deep breath....Slow easy breaths....Now....How do i review a book that has hit me so deeply and so profoundly without messing it up....Louis is a new author to me......I belong in his group and have come to love him as a fb friend......I started this book a few months back but wasn't in the right frame of mind to read as I now know...because...damn.....I'm broken.....This book is so deep and it takes you into yourself as you follow twins Matt, Brian and their Uncle Jake forward in their lives after the death of Matt and Brian's parents...Jake is their uncle who's brought them up....They are in high school on the verge of college and we are taken along on their journey..and it's a hard one.....Matt is easy to love. Its hard to find the words for him.....He's lovable and easy going, He has a instant liking to James, a swimmer but in the closet and Matt won't go back into the closet for anyone...Their relationship is hard going because of James' not coming out.....I thought hard to fight back tears a few times with these two as they grow together and apart....What James went through with his father is heartbreaking..but they come together......Jake, the uncle does an amazing job of keeping the boys in line aswell as getting his own romance with an old flame..and he needs to be tough to keep Brian in line....Oh my...Brian....You just have to love him...but you will want to hold him and hold him so tight with both hands....He is the twin that is hardest to control.....Brian gets going with Adam an older man who I took an instant dislike to and I just knew he was going to hurt Brian....Matt and Jake took instant dislikes to him and they were right to......I won't say what happens to Brian but omg that broke me.....I had tears rolling down my face...What Adam does to Brian is can see it coming throughout the book, but i'd hoped wrong....but.....Brian has his support team...Matt who he loves dearly....His Uncle Jake....his Coach and a surprise...Oliver....the guy who just can't work out his label...I'd say he's gfb...(Gay For Brian)....I loved Oliver from the start even though he was a bit of a pain to Brian....I just knew there was something there......Matt and Brian are two young men you will love....They love each other so much....(yes there's slight incest but nothing serious..pity)......Louis.....You have done an amazing job on this book...I really can't breathe at the minute as I write this....I'm so glad I took a chance on another new author.....Totally rocked my world x

  • Caroline Brand
    2019-05-25 04:11

    REVIEWED FOR PRISM BOOK ALLIANCE4.5 StarsI was absolutely convinced I had read a book by this author when I picked up Twice the Hands but it turns out I was wrong and he was a new to me author. After finishing he will certainly be an author I read again.Twice the Hands is a story of growing up, of teetering on adulthood yet still being so uncertain of your place in the world. It’s a story of family love that reaches past maternal and paternal boundaries and thrives on love.Matt and Brian are twins that lost both their parents in a car crash and have been raised by their Uncle. Matt is out and proud and takes life in at his own pace. He is sensitive, nerdy and at first seems the weaker of the two boys. Brian is bisexual and the complete opposite to his brother in so many ways. He is the school jock, a star football player and has taken on the role of protector where is brother is concerned.The two boys have a very close relationship that is often complicated but very important to them both. You don’t get one Walker brother without the other.The story also includes their Uncle Jake a gay man who essentially put his life on hold for over a decade to bring up ‘his boys’. We learn of his fear at being left with the responsibility of two young lives when he himself was so young. You can virtually feel the love he has for his family as you turn the pages. As the boys are almost heading to college he finds himself with his own relationship dilemma and it is reminiscent of the relationship that Matt currently finds himself in.This is a short insight to a family growing up. First relationships are never easy and both boys struggle. Facing homophobia in their home is something neither boy has had to grow up with but Matt’s new love interest sadly doesn’t have it so easy. Brian is drawn to the bad boys of the world and his bravado and keen need to fit in has devastating consequences. Suddenly the roles are flipped and Matt comes into his own as his brother’s protector and guardian.This is a book that you will be unable to put down until you finish as you become entwined in the life of the Walker boys and their Uncle. My only criticism is the editing and it’s not normally something I would bring up in a review. There were numerous errors that could have been easily spotted with a good proofread. They were jarring and kept pulling me from the story. My rating however doesn’t reflect these errors but I do feel they should be mentioned.

  • Joyfully Jay
    2019-05-28 08:05

    A Joyfully Jay review. 5 starsThis is one of those books that I have extremely mixed feelings reviewing. To be completely honest, there were parts of this book I absolutely loved, and then there were parts of this book that I wasn’t comfortable reading. Therefore, I must start this review by justifying my 5-star rating. The writing in this book flows beautifully and is so well written that it pulls you in and makes you want to keep turning the page despite the fact that the storyline itself put me way outside of my comfort zone. While I may not have been comfortable with reading certain parts of this book, I have to admit that it was written with such feeling that one could feel the adoration these characters had for one another so that even though we know what is happening is “wrong,” it felt “right.”This book actually has two different stories – the one that it comes with, and then an alternate ending version which totally blew my mind! I will warn readers that this book deals with issues involving rape and incest – yet, even though you realize that you are reading something taboo, it is so well written that the emotions are palpable. Then you read the alternate ending and, while you may have been okay with what was happening in the original story, that one now seems mild.Read Wendy’s review in its entirety here.

  • Amanda Eisenthal
    2019-06-12 05:01

    This story of Matt and Brian stays with you... The twins creep into a part of your mind and heart from which they never leave. The story is a sweet, yet tormented tale of 2 gay brothers living with a gay uncle and set around the senior year of high school where fears of moving on to college, first serious relationships and the changing bond between twins. A bond that is so deep, it can't help but provide the benchmark for their future partners. It will make you smile, it'll make you cry and you'll be taken on such a beautiful journey of such strong characters. Louis' writing is beautiful, strong. Complex without being showy. I absolutely adore this book and is worth every star I give it.I have been blessed to have these twins as part of my life for the past year... Thank you Louis for sharing them with me.

  • DTM
    2019-06-11 05:49

    4.5 stars....I'm blown away by this book...It was just a wonderful, beautiful story. I really wasn't sure what to expect after reading a few of the blurbs. I'm so glad I took the chance. I LOVED this family. I read this in one sitting. There are 2, how do I say this, overly intimate and completely unnecessary parts (couch/hallway) in this book that will leave, this otherwise beautiful story, a bad taste in some of the reader's mouths...I have no problem reading it as I've read other twin type books but those little moments are, to me, completely out of place in this story and it would have much broader reach without those 2 little 1/2 page each...I think folks will miss out on this beautiful story because of it and that would just be a crying shame. A must read in my opinion.

  • Kylie The Bookaholick
    2019-06-08 03:04

    Review to come.

  • MandaLee
    2019-06-12 02:54

    Beta read this a while ago... Super curious to see the final product <3 Congrats Louis!!!!!

  • Toni FGMAMTC
    2019-06-17 02:58

    FGMAMTC Blog Review + Excerpt 3.5 stars Twice the Hands to Hold covers a multitude of areas such as overcoming past pain, emotional growth, romance and family relationships. It's told in third person and follows the lives of a set of twin teen boys nearing high school graduation and their uncle who adopted them as young children after the death of their parents. Matt is openly gay and sure of his position in life. He's caring and concerned for those around him. He's the more sweet and friendly twin. He is also the one who doesn't get into trouble for the most part.Brian is bi. Outwardly, he appears to be confident and in control. He's smart and athletic, above the norm in many areas. Inside, he's plagued with pains of guilt and insecurity. Brian's internal struggles cause him to make bad choices and get into trouble.I found this to be a slice-of-life sweet tale of growing up. The twins, especially Brian, have tremendous ups and downs, but there are bits in the story to which everyone can identify. This is the perfect book for M/M readers wanting an intimate look inside the lives of a couple of almost men learning to let go of boyhood.***Copy given in exchange for an honest review***Fangirl Moments and My Two CentsWebsite / Facebook / Twitter / Google+ / Pinterest / Goodreads / Tumblr / tsū

  • Lily
    2019-06-07 09:00

    A beautifully written story told from each of the three main characters’ POV—Jake, the young, caring uncle, plus the teenage twins, Matt and Brian. They have become a tight-knit family in the wake of the tragic accident and Jake has done his best to raise the boys in a stable home. The love they feel for each other is clear and demonstrated throughout the story. But nothing stays the same and each man needs to spread their wings, develop other relationships, and find love from another man. Brian finds this hard to deal with at first and exhibits signs of jealousy, not wanting the close bond with his twin to be broken. But he has his own problems to deal with. The twins may look the same, but their personalities and stories are different. There are arguments and fallouts, teenage angst and the coming to terms with their tragic past. This is a story of first loves and first sexual experiences—a wonderful coming of age story, which deals with realistic and emotional issues for many gay men. Jake provides a wonderful role model for the boys, and despite feeling inadequate in his own ability as a parent, he steers them lovingly along the road to adulthood.

  • Lucrecia
    2019-05-29 08:53

    Twice the Hands to HoldUncle Jake and young twin brothers Matt and Brian. The adorable, kinda broken Walker family. You'll love them.I'm sure it's impossible not to. Their story, their lives are so deeply emotional, so tragically beautiful. So full of love, respect and strength for each other. They'll grip your heart and won't let go.You'll see them being there for each other so fiercely and lovingly while going through hard times. And better times. And losing sight of who they are and what they want for just a second and finding themselves all over again. And finding love. And being loved.It was sweet and heartwarming.I liked that all three of them got to share their POV. I always like that, it never fails to get me closer to the story. To them. So I understand their actions better. Their desires as well(*^^)^*)I loved it all, my sweeter side was completely at ease by the end. Louis wrote the story with such care for them three and the men who love them. Beautiful ♡o。.(✿ฺ。 ✿ฺ)

  • QUEERcentric Books
    2019-05-23 10:03

    Reviewed by Jay Chase for QUEERcentric BooksTwice the Hands to Hold is not what I expected when I picked up the book—it was definitely more! Louis Stevens wrote an extremely sweet coming-of-age story with its depiction of family bonds and love. It is an amazing story that leaves its mark with sadness, joy, tragedy and love.Brian and Matt are twins that were dealt a terrible blow with the loss of their parents at an early age. Brian was witness to this loss and has secretly carried their death with him through the years.Taken in by their uncle Jake, they have been given a good and stable life with an excellent role model. Jake willingly put his own life on hold to ensure that Brian and Matt are happy and secure while building a close knit loving family...Read Jay's full review at QUEERcentric Books

  • Alexandra Westwood-banham
    2019-05-23 02:58

    Ive read this twice, before writing this review, and I still don't know where to start!!Twice the Hands, is a beautifully written coming of age,that will stay with you for a long time. Filled with the usual teenage angst and first loves, jealousy. Twin brothers Matt and Brian along with their legal guardian Uncle jake share a bond of love that is beautiful, they've suffered tragedy in there past, and have to deal and cope with a heart breaking attack, that anyone would find difficult to come back from. 3 very different personalities, separate they get by, together they are complete.I still can't get into reading another, Ive succumbed to doing housework. Louis Stevens i'm officially lost.

  • Lisa
    2019-05-18 05:52

    I loved it!!!!I was in search of a book involving twin brothers and their uncle. I didn't think that existed anywhere but in my own head. And then BAM! This book appears. My dream book. I absolutely loved the beautiful relationship between the characters. They were easy to love and become attached to. I enjoyed the caring, beautiful and loving relationship that was constantly shown between these brothers. It was so much more than what I can put into words. This book is going in my top faves ^_^

  • Lisa
    2019-05-29 06:54

    I was torn over this book. However it surprised me.I dont usually read YA / NA but this book was certainly worth reading.Two brothers orphaned at a young age and bought up by their uncle. It to,d the story of them as they entered senior year. One brother gay, the other bi.The story of their loves and the not so easy path to HEAs for them. At one stage I thought the author was going down a twincest route but that was just to show the non physical love between them.

  • Jen
    2019-05-21 04:46

    4.5 stars for me. What brought it down was that these High School kids speak and think like English majors. I know very few teens who would use the big words that these kids did. But, setting that aside, I think I cried through the last 10% of the book. Heartbreaking. I need to go find something funny to read next to compensate.

  • Agony Tate
    2019-05-29 09:01

    Twice the Hands to Hold is a remarkable read, surprising in that these young men, in the form of twins, Matt and Brian, manage to embody the angst, emotion, and bad decision-making that mark young adulthood... Read the full review here:

  • Tammy
    2019-05-22 05:54

    4.5*This is a story of one family dealing with life and unconditional love! Uncle Jake put his life on hold to raise two fine young men. Matt and Brian are twins on the outside but very different on the inside. As Matt and Brian find love they come to realize that their heart can love more than their twin and Jake. Beautifully written!

  • Grimalkin Black
    2019-06-06 01:49

    4.5 Full review to come, will say this; lovely story, maybe was a bit too sweet for me but well written and executed.

  • Trio
    2019-05-24 10:12

    This was a very interesting story with many different character dynamics and sub plots. It was well crafted and nicely paced.

  • Grammy 1
    2019-06-16 03:57

    5*****StarsBook: Twice the Hands to HoldAuthor: Louis StevensPublisher: JMS Books LLCGenre: Contemporary RomanceRated: Mature M/MA friend recently introduced me to Joseph Lance Tonlet’s books. I devoured them. In doing this, I read Quillion’s Covert, co-authored by Louis Stevens. I enjoyed the book so much, I purchased a two book series written by him. This review is the first title being Twice the Hands to Hold and I was totally entranced by it. So, I will be gushing.This story has so many parts for the reader to digest. We are introduced to Jake, Brian, and Matt. This is their story which is told in all three of their POV’s. It is so easy to follow that way! To summarize, when Jake was in a teens, his besties were Henry and Brian. He was in love with both of these young friends. When Brian was dating and married his sister, because of his love for him he accepted it. He figured Brian was a crush in vain, but Henry on the other hand, was serious! After graduation, Henry had the chance to follow his dreams to go further in sports. He would leave town, leave Jake, remain in the closet and marry Linda. Jake is broken. It didn’t get better afterwards when Jake came out and had to get his own place. His parent’s reaction was not warm and fuzzy. Now at 22, his sister and his Brian are killed in a car crash and Uncle Jake was named the twins custodian. Mom and Dad never got over his ‘coming out’ and tried to take the boys from him in court. They lost. It has been quite a hard road. Jake now a lawyer, has raised the twins Brian and Matt all by himself for all these years. The twins are identical, but so different, each having their own personalities, yet each respecting Jake tremendously.We begin with the boys starting their senior year of high school. Matt is the Editor In Chief of the school newspaper and Brian has been named team captain as quarterback of the football team.This is the year that will change their lives. This Senior Year for Brian and Matt should have been smooth. Each brother has their future mapped out. Brian hopefully will get a scholarship moving on to Columbia and Matt continuing to college as well. Lots of changes will happen and we share the fear of each of the three, as the family dynamic will change. As I mentioned previously, the chapters are written and labeled by their name. Mr. Stevens has let us see what is going on in the minds of each and does a wonderful job keeping the reader invested into each character as if they are actual living beings. I know that the tough Brian is frightened at these changes, feeling the loss of his twin, who thinks he is so strong, yet needs Matt so much more than they both realize.This story is tender, heartbreaking, a coming of age for all three of them. There are revelations that surprise us and bring us closer to these three. Now Henry has returned to town, and we have to understand what that will mean to Jake and the twins. Thank you, Joseph Lance Tonlet for partnering with Louis Stevens. If not by that chance I would have never read this wonderful story!Review by Gloria LakritzSr Reviewer and Review Chair for the Paranormal Romance Guild

  • ~ Lei ~ Reading Is An Adventure ~
    2019-06-11 09:13

    ★★★☆☆ ~ 3 StarsI usually stay away from na/ya and this was not at all what I'd thought it would be (view spoiler)[twincest (hide spoiler)] so I was disappointed and apparently didn't read the blurb very well, my bad.Anyway, twin orphan brothers have been brought up by their uncle, and they're in the senior year and testing their wings and the trouble they can get into. Unfortunately, Brian gets trouble he wasn't expecting but his uncle, Jake, and brother, Matt, circle the wagons around him along with along with Jake's newly reconnected past lover.Love conquers all.

  • Sam Callaghan
    2019-06-15 04:00

    This story had me smiling and crying. Who wouldn't cry at this book?Brian and Matt are twin brothers living with their Uncle Jake after the death of their parents. Brian is bi, Matt is gay and Jake is gay as well. Together they live their lives, content with each other's company. Brian is a bit of a player whereas Matt and Jake are looking for someone a little more committed.When a terrible assault happens the family pulls together but one of them is harbouring guilt and can be the destruct button.When each of them find the one they have been hoping for, the trio are lifted up. Be prepared to need tissues as it's an emotional rollercoaster