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Sixteen-year-old Dani is convinced she has nine lives. As a child she twice walked away from situations where she should have died. But Dani's twin, Jena, isn't so lucky. She has cancer and might not even be able to keep her one life. Dani's father is in denial. Her mother is trying to hold it together and prove everything's normal. And Jena is wasting away. To cope, DaniSixteen-year-old Dani is convinced she has nine lives. As a child she twice walked away from situations where she should have died. But Dani's twin, Jena, isn't so lucky. She has cancer and might not even be able to keep her one life. Dani's father is in denial. Her mother is trying to hold it together and prove everything's normal. And Jena is wasting away. To cope, Dani sets out to rid herself of all her extra lives. Maybe they'll be released into the universe and someone who wants to live more than she does will get one. Someone like Jena. But just when Dani finds herself at the breaking point, she's faced with a startling realization. Maybe she doesn't have nine lives after all. Maybe she really only ever had one....

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Number of Pages : 245 Pages
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All These Lives Reviews

  • Giselle
    2019-05-23 19:22

    While I was a bit thrown off by the nine lives viewpoint, All These Lives is a really captivating story about dealing with cancer in a loved one. What's different in this one, is that the story is not actually about the cancer patient, but her sister, Dani. Dani and Jena are twins, Jena has cancer and Dani is battling with guilt. Specifically, she feels guilty for having nine lives, when Jena is fighting for her one. Let me tell you straight up. Dany is a bitch! She's snarky, rudely sarcastic, and kind of a bully. This could put off some readers, but I found it strangely interesting. If I knew her in real life I would detest her instantly, in this novel however, her voice is remarkably compelling. She amused me with her peculiar sense of humor, and her reflective thoughts are extremely tormenting. You can understand how much she's really struggling, thus making her personality a little less… inviting. She's hiding behind a mask so people don't see how deeply she's hurting. We've definitely got an original protagonist who may not have the best personality, but her tragically broken state makes this a truly memorable book. I also have to say that I was particularly pleased with the parental roles and their prominence in the story. Dani thinks she has nine lives. She's been in accidents that should have killed her, but didn't. This aspect in the story is a tad strange. I was never sure if it was meant to add some supernatural elements into it, or if was simply Dany's illusory contemplations about death. Even though it's a big part of the book summary, this side of the story is not the primary focus. It's not even about the actual cancer. It's really more about the sisterly bond, and Dani's unusual way of dealing. It's not your typical cancer novel. Though you can still expect a lot of deep emotions; helplessness, loneliness, and desperation can clearly be felt throughout. There is also some humor and lighthearted moments, even a bit of romance, that gives it the perfect balance. I felt the ending could have gone with more spark; I was expecting more closure in some aspects, but I'm satisfied nonetheless. A remarkable story about an atypical teenage girl in an unforgiving situation, All These Lives is a wonderfully moving novel that I think many readers will easily get immersed in. This beautify writing debut novel proves that Sarah is an author to watch for!--For more of my reviews, visit my blog at Xpresso Reads

  • K.
    2019-05-29 16:33

    This is one of those books I sometimes feel unequipped to read. I feel like, because I haven't suffered true loss, somehow I can't connect as deeply as I want to with books that deal with death and grief. And is it very terrible of me to say that I want to? Is it to relieve them, or to understand human nature? Does it come from fear of realizing that perhaps I am not as whole, or as ready for life, because I don't know how to handle sorrow?This isn't really a book about cancer. It is no more than a means -- because in the end, death is death. It's about Dani, whose sister is dying. The story is Dani's journey in coming to terms with the fact that one day, the person she loves most in the world, may be gone. Sarah Wylie's All These Lives is a taxing read. Not because of the sadness, or the tension. Or because of the hospital scenes and the blood and IVs. It's because Wylie's protagonist demands attention and patience. It was a difficult book to get into, and honestly, for a while there I thought this was going to turn into a chore-read. I had a hard time understanding Dani. What exactly was she feeling? Her actions and words pointed to too many places. The thing is, we come into Dani's life after Jena's diagnosis. We have no reference between Dani-before and Dani-after. We only have Dani-now, who is irascible, smart-mouthed, and a bully. We can't as easily forgive her because we know from past experience that she is genuinely good; that she is only misunderstood. The Dani we have is unlikeable. She also believes she may have nine lives, and in order to save her sister, she tries to do away with as many of them as she can afford -- because she believes that somehow if she does it just right, one of her lives might find its way into Jena. It's an improbable premise, unless this book is heading towards the paranormal. But it isn't. It's pure realistic fiction. And you can't get any more real than death. Dani isn't a bitch. Readers might disagree -- and rightly so, as Dani provides us ample reason to judge her as one. But she isn't. Instead, as most bitches turn out to be, she is the opposite. She is everything at once: weak and afraid to lose her twin, bitter with God, unbelieving of miracles, and pretty much retired to existing at all. She is not a bitch because as we see her putting up walls to ward off the world, she is doing exactly that with us, especially herself. She lies to herself so much, we're almost never sure which ones she believes and which ones she doesn't. That is probably the greatest evidence of her helplessness, and she knows it. I couldn't judge her so harshly and dismissively for all the senseless trouble she imposed on herself and her family because she was just a little girl trying to be tough when all she wanted was to crumble. The nine lives is a sensitive topic. How could a girl actually believe she has nine lives? And that it's possible to transfer them into another person? There is no magic here, no miracle. The closest thing to the divine is a family's love and dedication to each other: a mother trying be everything her daughters need, and a father trying to cope with the realization that just because he's the father, he is not all-knowing. Jena's cure is beyond their ability, and so they cling and glue themselves together even when they are being yanked apart. Dani's nine lives and her attempts at counting them down comes across as monumentally stupid and irresponsible. And they are, but they are also devastating. Because I don't think she actually does believe it. Instead, it shows once again how deep her suffering goes. She isn't really trying to give Jena her life, though she would if she could. Perhaps, a part of Dani has accepted defeat and makes her attempts on the off chance she might go, too. But she does it half-heartedly because she doesn't really want to die and how could she do that to her parents after everything they've been through?The writing is sharp and full of sting. Wylie has a dark and deeply cutting sense of humor. Dani goes from contemplating suicide to tortuously flirting with the school geek. Wylie smothers us in dark, but occasionally lets us breathe because despite the gravity of this book, I couldn't help snickering. She really has some of the best lines. When I looked at my notebook, I saw that I'd jotted down many page numbers. Not many books compel me to do that. This is another one you won't feel gratified for reading until you're nearing the end, and then you find that you've actually become quite attached. You'll like Dani, despite all her efforts to be hated. You see past her facade because it just isn't that good. Her mask slips from the very beginning and you spend the entire book watching her struggle in keeping it on. It's sad. This will tear you just a little bit; more if you know what she's going through. I didn't, but even I was pulled in and tasted its bitterness. Wylie is a very good, very effective writer. The book rides on all kinds of pain, and all degrees of grief, worry and dread but Wylie eventually takes you where you need to go, which in this case, is acceptance of the things that are simply out of our hands, and that this is exactly why we must make every moment count.---My heart jumps out of its cage to see what the fuss is about. Damn thing. Always so hopeful, but my voice hides it well. --"I know," Jack says, sitting down next to me. I start to point out that a) I didn't invite him to, and b) his pants length is too short and if I see his socks, I will act out, but it's too late. He's right next to me. --I bite into the flesh on the side of my mouth until it starts to bleed. I want to find a smaller place to hide, in between the shelves, or inside the pages of this book, or in between the letters of a word... I want to fold myself inside out and disappear. Grow smaller, smaller, smaller, till nobody can see me.---An ARC was provided by the publisher.

  • Nicola
    2019-06-08 17:28

    I've been really looking forward to reading All These Lives for a long time now and I was so excited when I finally got the chance sit down and dive into it. However, after just a few pages, I began to get a bit wary of it and started to fear I would have some issues with the protagonist, Dani. I just got this feeling that she would irritate me for the rest of the book. Thankfully though, I was wrong! I quickly warmed up to her and actually really began to appreciate her personality after just a few more pages and was able to sit back and enjoy the rest of the book.Dani certainly stands out as a character and is really well developed. She's sarcastic and cynical and it really suits her! While the premise of this book is about Dani's twin sister having cancer, the core of the novel is really about Dani and where her life is headed... both in relation to her sister and many other things. She is of course going through a lot and not surprisingly, isn't handling it very well. I loved how raw and honest this book was. Dani doesn't sugar coat her thoughts or the situations she ends up in. She doesn't pretend that everything's okay or that she's okay.Dani's road to self destruction is both fascinating and scary to watch. She's really very confused and trying her best to make sense of the bad things that have happened to her family. I really loved all the minor characters in the book! I especially enjoyed getting to know the ''geeky'' guy from school, Jack. Dani and Jack share a rather interesting friendship and I liked their interactions with each other and how they change as the book goes on. Wylie's writing is lovely and very easy to follow and get lost in. All These Lives was a pretty quick read and one I was finished with in just a few hours.This is definitely a novel I will remember for a long time to come. Dani's view of the world is brilliant to read about and leaves you with a lot to think about when you're finished! There are a lot of YA cancer books out at the moment (I've read two others so far this year) but All These Lives absolutely has something new to offer and I would recommend it to any contemporary fans looking for something that is real and honest and doesn't spend the whole time deliberately trying to mess with your emotions.To see more of my reviews and book-related posts, check out my blog here.

  • hayden
    2019-06-10 15:19

    Let me first just say that the reason I've been reading this for over a week isn't because of its insufferable boringness. It's actually because of my insufferable workload as a high-school sophomore. If it were, say, the weekend when I started this, my review would've came in frantics and complete hysterics, full of gushing and an insurmountable number of typos.ALL THESE LIVES is much different than I thought it was going to be. The story and the premise remind me slightly of Imaginary Girls (and so does the cover!), but there were quite a few differences. The plot was actually existent in this book, not shrouded in gorgeous writing as was the case in IG. The sisters are much closer in this book and much more relatable.Dani Bailey is a fraternal twin, and her other half, Jena, has cancer. Dani has been different all her life because she has nine lives. Or, she did have nine lives. She lost some when she got in a car accident and caught an infection in her chest. To cope with the pain of losing her sister, she goes out and rids herself of all of her extra lives, hoping they'll fly out into the universe and hopefully toward someone who needs/wants them more than her, like her sister.ALL THESE LIVES is a very original story, and when I say original, I mean original to me. I've never read a book where a person had more than one life. It wouldn't suffice to say the subject of the novel intrigued me. The book starts off with a bang of a prologue, explaining how it feels for MC Dani to die. From there, I was hooked.One of the subplots of the book is Dani's acting career. She's trying to land a lead in a toothpaste commercial, and Jena's progressing death is conflicting with her dreams. Everything Dani feels in the book is so realistic, it's almost as if you're right there. I've never known what it's like to lose someone you truly love (I've been very fortunate) besides a distant family member, but if I was losing my other half, I know what I'd feel, and it's exactly what Dani is feeling.The writing of the book is good. A few solid gems are interspersed throughout, a few emotional lines that feel like punches in the gut.I definitely know I'm going to add this to my real-life shelf when it is released in a few short months!

  • Nafiza
    2019-05-21 12:33

    Just to refresh your memory, I read The Fault in Our Stars by John Green this year. It dealt with kids who had cancer and limited life spans. It wrung my heart out to dry and I alternated between swooning at the delectable prose and wailing at the emotions being evoked by the same delectable (but so tragic) prose. I thought I was done with this theme for the rest of the year. However, for some odd reason, I found myself requesting All These Lives from Net Galley. My brain was screaming frantically but my hands seemed to be autonomous and clicked the request button. And when I did get approved, my brain and heart conferred and then decided that yes, they were in accord and I would read All These Lives.Now that I have thoroughly bored you with that paragraph, let me tell you this. All These Lives is an experience that you will want yourself to keep having. I’m not joking. It is painful yes but it is also brilliant. Comparisons to TFIOS are inevitable but All These Lives hold its own against what was a pretty epic novel. And you know what? Come closer and I will whisper: I liked All These Lives just a little better than TFIOS. Yes, scandalous I know. Where TFIOS dealt with themes of death and ending up, close and personal – dying without having a say in it, All These Lives takes a step back and examines this same situation from another perspective. Dani has become one of my favourite heroines. She’s right there with Katniss and Briony: a flawed heroine, filled with pain, irreverent, sarcastic and yet so very vulnerable. Dani is multifaceted and composed so realistically that she could be a girl you know. The girl with the attitude and the mouth. The girl you secretly want to be. Dani’s pain and method of dealing with her twin’s illness is perhaps the greatest selling point of the novel. I love how Wylie avoided pathos and melodrama, how she didn’t pound in the tragedy with a hammer. We know it’s not fair, we know it’s tragic. What Wylie gives us is a glimpse of how one person’s illness can shatter an entire family. I think the word here would be brittle. Jena’s illness seeps into the spaces in their family and makes their unit brittle.Dani’s way of dealing may seem extreme but Wylie manages to make it believable. She shows how Dani comes to the conclusion that she has so many lives that she can just give one away. There is an exquisite fragility in the subtle way Dani’s actions mask her bewilderment and her pain at not just what Jena is going through but also what their entire family is undergoing. And the writing. Goodness, the writing. It is beautiful. The romance is also one of the selling points in the novel. I have noticed that in all YA novels, no matter what the initial premise, the focus almost always shifts to the romance either halfway or partway through the novel. Sometimes so much so that the overall plot is subsumed by issues of oh he loves me, oh he doesn’t. This is not the case in All These Lives. Oh there’s romance but there is a tinge of it. Just a blush of it and you know what? That is all that is needed. Any more would have ruined the pace, the balance and the composition.This novel is easily one of my favourites this year. And for a debut novel to be this strong is certainly remarkable. I recommend this novel to you, to your friends, to everyone who wants to read a beautiful book.

  • Isamlq
    2019-06-02 15:19

    3.5/5Don’t let the nine lives idea fool you, this is more of a sister-sister story, much like Imaginary Girls was with the major deduction of any paranormal element. I loved it though this is not necessarily what I feel for Dani, the MC.I wanted to like her. And I did like her at first too. But she had very little qualms about who she was and what she did. She could be such a bully. She could be so mean. And I wanted to forgive her that fact. I was close to doing so several times in the book mainly because she had this humor to her. Sure, I enjoyed her poking fun at others; sure, I had a good laugh… but it was always at the expense of someone else. Did I forgive her meanness because she could be mean in a funny way? I wanted to. Did I accept her the way she was because she was going through some things? I wanted to.And maybe I did. Because at its core this is another sister story. That they’re close is to put it mildly. And that Dani reacts differently is yet another reaction. Their notions of being back-ups for each other, was simultaneously sweet and heart breaking, but limiting too. Because there’s only so much you can do for someone else because it’s also this part of the story where Dani stretches the acceptable to the limit.Moving beyond Jena needing her, or Dani needing Jena, or their parents needing them and vice versa, there’s also bits of it just about Dani. As said, she the girl could be mean and it was those moments where she shone a little brighter; I could see just how quick to quip and out of the box she could be. I liked/disliked this aspect of her because sometimes things are just best left unsaid… this is so even if she did make a couple of very valid points. Mean girl/funny kid she is.I would have loved this more with a little more fleshing out on the parts of the supporting characters… but I enjoyed it. I really did though this is not necessarily what I feel for Dani.THANKS NG!3.5/5

  • Aleeeeeza
    2019-06-08 12:17

    you know one of the suckiest situations i sometimes gotta go through? loving an author through their blog and dyiiiing to get your hands on their book and then when you finally do, finding it impossible to get through. here's what it's like:i. couldn't. stand. the MC in this book. dunno what's up with this but i haven't yet read a snarky MC who's snark i did not detest. the first every MC i wrote (who also is my favorite, incidentally) is like, a snark bomb, but when i read about other snarky MC's my annoy-o-meter goes like, off the effing chart.#CONFUSIONi guess maybe i'm still waiting to read of an MC who is snarky enough to be hilarious yet relatable enough to elicit my empathy.someday, perhaps.i also couldn't care less about the cancer thing. i know it makes me sound horrible but books w/cancer really just fail to affect me purrty much every. single. time. (gimme a cancer movie, though, and i'm a bloody mess. so i promise i'm not ENTIRELY heartless.)gotta say though, that ms. wylie writes wonderfully. i just didn't like the plot very much (the whole nine lives thing just flew over my head) and had major disconnect with all the characters.

  • Elizabeth Norris
    2019-06-17 18:07

    This is one of my absolute all time favorites, a book I could read over and over and over again. Dani is an amazing character and I laughed and cried with her. And Jack Penner, oh my gosh, dorky Jack Penner, I love you.

  • Linna
    2019-05-25 12:26

    The title made me think of reincarnation (meh), but this sounds even more interesting. :)

  • Lauren
    2019-05-29 16:16


  • Always Reading
    2019-05-26 14:26

    InhaltDie 16-jährige Dani ist überzeugt, sie besitzt neun Leben. Schließlich hat sie schon als Kind zweimal einen tödlichen Unfall überlebt. Ihre Zwillingsschwester Jena dagegen scheint nur über ein Leben zu verfügen – und selbst das schwindet dahin. Dani, voller Angst aber auch Schuldgefühle gegenüber der leukämiekranken Schwester, schließt einen Pakt mit dem Schicksal: Sie wird ihre überzähligen Leben aufs Spiel setzen. Vielleicht reicht das Universum sie dann an jemanden weiter, der so ein Leben viel dringender braucht als sie. Jemanden wie Jena. Doch als Dani ihr Spiel schließlich auf die Spitze treibt, muss sie der Wahrheit ins Gesicht sehen. Vielleicht hat sie gar nicht neun Leben zur Verfügung. Vielleicht hat auch sie nur dieses EINE. Und das zu leben erfordert all ihren Mut.Meine MeinungEigentlich, hatte ich mich auf die Lektüre „Alle meine Leben“ gefreut. Und eigentlich mag ich die Grundidee die der Handlung zugrunde liegt immer noch. Eigentlich. Aber eigentlich denke ich auch dass das absoluter Bullshit war was die Autorin sich da zusammen gestottert hat.Im Grunde geht es um Dani; ihre Zwillingsschwester Jena ist todkrank. Sie hat Leukämie – so wie alle Teenies in Jugendbüchern, anscheinend gibt es keine andere Krankheit, an der man dahin siechen kann. Dani ist der Meinung, dass sie neun Leben hat – denn sie hat in frühster Kindheit einen schweren Autounfall und eine Bauchfellentzündung überlebt. So weit so gut. Tatsächlich hat mir die Ausgangssituation gefallen und habe mich auf ein tragisches Buch mit einigen Lektionen und gut platziertem Humor eingestellt. Das war meine Vorstellung. Jetzt kommt die Realität.Im Laufe der Geschichte experimentiert Dani quasi mit dieser Theorie der neun Leben. Und immer wenn sie fast gestorben wäre, geht es ihrer Schwester wieder besser – die an den Tagen, an denen Dani das Himmelfahrtskommando startete, schonmal Blut kotzend in der Ecke hockte. Aber dazu kommen wir später nochmal, ich möchte euch natürlich nicht vorenthalten, warum der Anfang schon absolut Scheiße war.Obwohl, der Prolog geht eigentlich noch. Der Leser wird ins Geschehen geschmissen und man erfährt sofort das Wichtigste: Jena ist krank, also hat die gesamte Familie aufgehört zu leben und existiert ausschließlich noch um Jena zu unterstützen. Es wird ohne Wertung, ohne Details einfach nur geschildert. Der Leser kann sich selbst ein Bild davon machen, wie er dazu steht. Und hier ist das Gute (zum Großteil) auch schon vorbei.Denn Dani ist eine Rotzgöre, wie sie im Buche steht. Das ist nicht lustig, das ist nicht selbstbewusst, das ist nicht rebellisch. Das Mädel verhält sich respektlos, ekelhaft, abwertend und einfach nur dämlich. Keiner ist vor ihrem Geplärre sicher, sie mobbt ganz gerne zwei bestimmte Mitschüler und erlaubt sich über alles und jeden ein Urteil. Denn hey, ihre Schwester ist krank! Und das Schlimmste ist, dass sie diesen Freifahrtschein auch noch großzügig von den Lehrern ausgehändigt bekommt. Sorry, bei allem Mitgefühl und Verständnis für gewisse Umstände; du bist trotzdem für deine verdammten Handlungen verantwortlich! Und da werde ich ihr verhalten auch nicht mit ihren bescheidenen 16 Jahren entschuldigen.Nein, wirklich. Am meisten an diesem ganzen Buch hat mich dieses Weib aufgeregt. Sie geht zu einer Party und säuft sich da um Sinn und Verstand. Warum weiß keiner, den Grund weiß wohl nur Dani., betont aber immer wieder dass sie ja einen Grund hat. Alles klar, lasst uns Rätsel raten! So, da flirrtet sie ein bisschen mit einem gewissen Spencer, der in etwa so wichtig und interessant wie mein Frühstück ist. Dann wird sie nach Hause gefahren, ist stockbesoffen, stiftet ihre Schwester an nach draußen zu gehen. Die unterhalten sich ein bisschen, Mutti kommt und macht Stress – weil schwaches Immunsystem und Kälte. Und Dani springt in den eiskalten See/Pool und will ertrinken. So jetzt erklärt mir mal bitte einer wo der Sinn darin bestand.Mag ja sein, dass sie im Grunde nur ihre Theorie mit den neun Leben testen wollte und das alles in der Hoffnung tat, dass sie ihrer Schwester praktisch ein Leben abgibt. So wird das ja auch immer und immer wieder gesagt. Aber man kann Danis Gedankengängen einfach mal kein bisschen folgen, weil sie nämlich jeglichen Ansatz von Verständnis und Sympathie, den ich ihr entgegengebracht hätte im Keim erstickt, indem sie sich wie die Prinzessin auf der Erbse aufführt und erstmal schön ausführlich alles und jeden verurteilt.Und die Autorin hält sich ja auch gar nicht weiter damit auf. Sie dümpelt da im See rum, bis ihr Vater sie raus zieht. Dann kriegt sie ein bisschen Gemecker ab und am nächsten Tag mobbt sie wieder ihren Mitschüler. Gibt strunzendämliche Kommentare von sich, die angeblich lustig sein sollen. Dem Weib sollte man ein Maulkorb verpassen, so lustig fand ich ihr Palaber!Hin und wieder schwenkt die Story dann zu ihrer nicht vorhandenen Schauspielkarriere um. Dani spricht für Werbespots und so vor; ihr Vater begleitet sie dahin. Dort erlaubt sie sich auch über alles und jeden ein Urteil, stellt sämtliche Erztötungsmethoden anderer Eltern infrage und nimmt sich die Frechheit heraus diese auch noch laut auszusprechen. Gut, sie kann ihre Meinung haben, gerne. Sie kann denken was sie will und im Grunde kann sie auch sagen was sie will. Aber, es gibt nun mal einen sehr großen Unterschied zwischen seine Meinung sagen und jemanden beleidigen. Und Dani tut nun mal letzteres und das über die gesamte Story hin gestreckt.Nach einigen endlose langen Modekritiken von Dani, geht es Jena nicht so gut. Sie hat einen schlechten Tag, hat hohes Fieber, muss sich übergeben und diese ganzen grauenvollen Sachen die dazu gehören, wenn der Körper kämpft. Die Eltern beschließen dass sie mit Jena ins Krankenhaus fahren und Dani fährt zu Spencer, überredet diesen dass er sie auf seinem Motorrad mitnimmt und sobald er absteigt brettert sie alleine los und gurkt mit hundert Sachen gegen einen Baum. Mit Absicht wohlgemerkt.Wie gesagt, an sich fand ich diese Grundlage der Story eigentlich vielversprechend. Ein Mädchen geht davon aus dass sie neun Leben hat, weil sie schon so manches überlebt hat, woran andere zugrunde gegangen sind. Dazu kommt noch dass ihre Mutter ihr das von klein auf erzählt hat – die saß ebenfalls mit im Auto bzw. fuhr das Auto, als das erste Leben abhandengekommen ist. Und von diesem Mädchen ist die Schwester todkrank. Es wurde zwar nie gesagt, dass Jena eigentlich umsonst kämpft, aber Krebs ist Krebs. Da bleibt ja, egal wie heilbar manche Arten heutzutage sind, immer ein Restrisiko dass es vielleicht doch ohne Vorwarnung und mit voller Kraft woanders oder später zuschlägt. Und weil sie möchte dass ihre Schwester diesen Kampf gewinnt, hat sie die Theorie dass immer wenn Dani ein Leben verliert, es an Jena geht. Deswegen geht es Jena immer besser, sobald Dani mal wieder ein Himmelfahrtskommando gestartet hat. Mag Geschmackssache sein, aber ich empfand das schon als vielversprechend, wenn es denn ordentlich geschrieben ist.Eigentlich hatte ich eine bewegende Geschichte zweier Schwestern erwartet, vielleicht ein bisschen philosophisches Palaber inwieweit zwei Leben wertvoll sind und inwieweit man sowas moralisch vertreten kann. Sich selbst in Gefahr zu bringen, um einen anderen zu retten. Sein eigenes Leben wegzuschmeißen, während die andere Person des Lebens beraubt wird. Jemandem es anzutun mit dem Verlust zu leben, weil man seine Theorie nicht beweisen konnte. Auf solche Themen habe ich mich eingestellt. Stattdessen fährt die Dummbratze also mit dem Motorrad gegen den Baum, überlebt natürlich. Ein bisschen gebrochenes Handgelenk, eine Woche zu Hause bleiben, halbherzige Standpauke der Eltern und abgehakt ist das Thema.Ich weiß gar nicht mehr was danach passiert ist, weil alles so ein bisschen in der Dummheit der Protagonistin untergegangen ist. Sie mobbt weiterhin fleißig ihre Mitschüler, warum auch immer einer, von denen dann auch noch auf sie steht. Die Familie beschließt dann einen Kurzurlaub zu machen; mit dem Wohnwagen zu einem Campingplatz zu fahren. Dort geht es Jena wieder schlechter, sie sagt aber selber, dass sie einfach nur einen schlechten Tag hat. Ich kenne mich mit Krebs jetzt nicht aus, doch ich würde mal sagen dass jemand schon selber beurteilen kann wie es ihm geht. Es ist ja schließlich ihr Körper und sie hat die ganzen Symptome. Ich denke, man kann sich da auf den Patienten und die Tatsache verlassen, dass er „Heute ist ein schlechter Tag“ und „Ruf den Notarzt!“ unterscheiden kann. Dani geht ins Badezimmer und schluckt mal eben eine Handvoll Pillen; irgendwelche Schlaftabletten die ihrer Mutter gehören.Sie betet eine Runde den Porzellangott an, lügt ihre Mutter an, sagt dass sie nur was Falsches gegessen hat. Und der Urlaub ist dann auch schon vorbei. Es wurden keine Gefühle, keine Gedanken, kein irgendwas behandelt. Man kann immer noch nicht so genau nachvollziehen, warum Dani dass jetzt eigentlich macht. Ja, es ist ihre Schwester. Aber das kann man mir nicht einfach hinwerfen. Menschen stehen immer unterschiedlich zueinander, ich muss die Beziehung der beiden schon nachempfinden können. Muss raus lesen können dass ihre Schwester für sie der wichtigste Mensch der Welt ist. Aber nix da, nada. Ist halt einfach so, akzeptier das!Nachdem ein Ehestreit der Eltern eingestreut wurde, weil der Vater wieder heimlich mit rauchen angefangen hatte und Dani das ganze auch noch sehr unsensibel bis hin zu einer Scheidung weiterspinnt, gehen die Eltern aus. Beziehungsweise zu einer Bibelstunde, als teil der Streitschlichtung. Ich würde sowas nicht machen, aber hey, sollen sie machen. Was auch immer sie möchten, was auch immer ihnen hilft. Jena und Dani sind alleine zu Hause, gehen Süßigkeiten kaufen und in den Park. Leider kommt mal wieder überhaupt nicht rüber, ob die beiden sich jetzt nun nahe stehen oder ob sie einfach nur dieselben Eltern haben. Jedenfalls, bekommt Jena Nasenbluten. Dani rennt nach Hause, um Jenas Medikamente zu holen, der Notarzt kommt. Jena wird mitgenommen. Und dann läuft Dani los, rennt, denkt unzusammenhängende Gedanken und stürzt sich von einer Klippe.Leider hat auch das nicht geklappt. Ernsthaft, am Ende war ich einfach nur noch so genervt von dieser Göre, dass ich mir sehnlichst gewünscht habe dass ihre überdramatisierten Suizidversuche doch endlich mal mit einem Erfolg gekrönt werden! Stattdessen bekommt man ein Kapitel, in dem wohl angedeutet werden soll dass sie dem Tod wirklich nur knapp von der Schippe gesprungen ist. Es gibt ein oder zwei Gespräche a la sowas kannst du nicht machen, dein Leben ist so wertvoll, deine arme Schwester und blablabla. Dani ist nicht mehr suizidgefährdet, Jena kämpft weiter. Ende.FazitIhr seht also „Alle meine Leben“ war einfach nur anstrengend. Aus einer vielversprechenden Idee wurde eine Geschichte mit einer unerträglichen Protagonistin geschustert, die alles und jeden verurteilt und sich von einem Suizidversuch in den nächsten stürzt ohne das dabei auch nur ansatzweise sowas wie Gefühl rüber kommt. Ich war einfach nur genervt von der Geschichte und habe nicht im mindesten irgendein Verständnis oder ähnliches für Dani aufbringen können.1/5 Sternen

  • Kelly
    2019-05-17 14:15

    All These Lives took me by complete surprise. I would never have imagined that I would like such a snarky and sarcastic protagonist, or that I would empathize with her guilt over being very much alive when her sister is walking a fine line between life and death. I thought All These Lives was going to be about the struggles of living with someone who has cancer. What I got was so much more!Dani is not an easy character to like as she's actually a bit of a bully. Her snark is always intended to hurt and her sarcasm was constantly used to keep people at arm's length so they couldn't see just how deeply she was hurting. It's only because her actions were so obviously the result of her survivor's guilt - guilt she carries like a weight for being healthy when her sister is so sick and for not being a match when they are fraternal twins - that I was able to look deeper and see a girl who is pushing everyone away to avoid having to face that pain.Her expression falls slightly as she senses that my walls are up and she's not nearly strong enough to climb over. Not even today when she is leukaemia's version of Superwoman.I was able to see a girl who was struggling to keep her head above water, as she tried not to drown in the paralyzing fear of being completely helpless. Feeling lost and broken, her pain is raw and real and vivid and not surprisingly, she doesn't know how to handle it.I grew to fall in love with her, and her sense of humour and quick wit generally had me laughing out loud. She wore her cynicism like a suit of armour but it was easily destroyed whenever Jena asked something of her. Her love for her family, even when she was mentally rolling her eyes over how they chose to cope with Jena's illness, was so endearing. At first, I couldn't understand why she spent so much time separating herself from Jena, and I was angry with her for abandoning Jena when she needed Dani the most. But I quickly grew to understand Dani's fears of upsetting Jena by saying the wrong thing or by pushing her too hard, worsening her condition.How is it possible that I miss her when she's right here?Wylie truly knows how to pull on the heartstrings of anyone who has a sibling, and I found myself constantly in tears whenever I put myself in Dani's position.At first, the references to Dani's nine lives was...strange. Having survived what should have been a fatal accident as an infant, and later a chest infection that should have been too much for her to overcome, Dani believes that, like a cat, she has nine lives. She was once told a story about how when a cat uses one of its lives, it is given to a different cat who might have only had one or two lives. She starts thinking that if she can work her way through her lives, then maybe, just maybe, one of them will make it's way to Jena and make her not just better, but well. I wasn't sure if an element of the paranormal was going to be introduced, or if this was just one of Dani's coping mechanisms.It did open the door for an amazing path of self-discovery where Dani learns that what matters is that we live while we can.Most people think the biggest sacrifice, the greatest act of love you can give is to die for someone. And probably it is.But sometimes it is the opposite.The biggest thing you can do for someone is to live.Her battle with her inner demons and the realization that Jena might need her to live as much as she needs Jena to live, was heart-warming and beautiful.The secondary characters were all well done, and I LOVED how prominent both of Dani's parents were - not only in presence but with their interactions with each other and with Dani. Dani's friendship with Jack was adorable - her refusal to look at him as anything other then a friend because he might iron his jeans, or even worse, his underwear, again had me laughing out loud. I wanted to hurt her when she purposely hurt his feelings, or tried to embarrass him, but I loved that he eventually stood up for himself and called her out on certain things when on one else would.All These Lives was a wonderful read. Once you get over Dani's abrasiveness, you can't help but sympathize with her and her family. Wylie has written a compelling look into a side of cancer that we don't often see and readers won't be able to help being touched by it's sincerity.

  • Jenny
    2019-06-03 16:25

    Rating: 3.5/5All These Lives is one of those stories that presents us with a quick snapshot of a character’s life—no drawing us in with a beginning, complicating matters in the middle, and then dropping our jaws at the end, instead we arrive in the middle, spend some time, and leave still very much in the middle of the characters' timelines. Typically with this type of read emotional attachment is a bit shallower, our time with the protagonists so limited it's hard to feel as though we truly get to know them, finding ourselves at the very best able to sympathize with them before we reach the last page and are left to wonder what will come of them. Such is the case with All These Lives, our snippet of Dani’s life as she struggles to deal with her twin sister’s leukemia a quick and dark one, leaving us with heavy hearts as we watch one young woman self-destruct in an attempt to save another.Dani is a tricky young heroine, springing from the story in the very first chapter with a rather blunt demeanor to slap us in the face and make us blink at our rather rocky introduction. While it’s clear she uses her attitude and her general disregard for the feelings of others as a coping mechanism for Jena's illness–feeling as though there’s no room in her for anything outside of the overwhelming guilt she feels for being the sister with lives to spare–her snide comments and standoffish personality prove to be armor we lack even the slightest ability to chink. Her misguided belief that she has nine lives (that if given up and released into the universe through death could find their way to someone like her sister who needs them) is challenging to read about, making us extremely uncomfortable and reinforcing Dani’s feelings of helplessness with regard to Jena by forcing us to acknowledge our own helplessness when it comes to saving Dani from herself.All These Lives will likely appeal to those readers who enjoy realism without the pleasant safety of a sugar coating, where life is hard and at times brutal, and a miraculous happy ending, however desirable, isn’t necessarily a guarantee. Dani isn’t an easy protagonist on any level, and while we get tiny glimpses of vulnerability here and there, she fights us tooth and nail the entire way, making it crystal clear she would shove us from her life if she knew we were there just as roughly as she does those around her. As mentioned before, there’s no real beginning or end to this story, so we close the back cover without a definite future for Dani and Jena laid before us, but we do get some comfort in knowing Dani has learned from her nine-lives experiment and will perhaps start shedding some of that flawless armor moving forward.

  • Kelly
    2019-05-23 16:30

    3.5.All These Lives was surprising, in a really good way. Cancer stories feel manipulative to me, but this one worked because it was much less about Jena's cancer and much more about Dani -- Jena's twin sister -- dealing with being the girl who is very much alive and very much not sick. Dani's not the easiest character to read because she's sarcastic and she's not exactly pleasant, but she's easy to sympathize with. I appreciated how at times it wasn't crystal clear what Dani was thinking. She dealt with things by doing, as a way to distract herself from her own thoughts. (view spoiler)[ Each of her attempts to end her life to save her sister's really got at me. Her pain felt realistic without coming across as over-the-top or too heavy.(hide spoiler)] The other thing I really appreciated was that the illness wasn't drawn out and it wasn't made painful for the reader. (view spoiler)[ The fact no one dies in the end was refreshing and I really loved this: "Most people think the biggest sacrifice, the greatest act of love you can give is to die for someone. And probably it is. But sometimes it is the opposite. The biggest thing you can do for someone is to live."(hide spoiler)]. This was a book about living and not dying, and that's what Dani learns about herself and what she learns about Jena. I appreciated the ending so much because Dani figures this out in two waves -- first about herself, then about her sister -- and it's the way she should learn the lesson, since she'd been living the other way around. Wylie's writing is literary without trying too hard, and the pacing is solid. I think the fact this story isn't steeped heavily in the illness, in the sadness and the obsession over cancer and the implications of the word/implications of the reality of that diagnosis, made the writing and pacing work. Wylie successfully writes a story where illness plays a role, rather than writing an illness, where a story plays a role. It's a big distinction, and it's what sets stories meant to make you cry because of what they deal with apart from stories that make you cry because of how they deal with it. Full review here:

  • Rabiah
    2019-06-02 19:28

    Originally posted at: These Lives was an AMAZING contemporary. I read it earlier this, but I still remember it and I loved it. It was just so funny, so sweet and had such emotional depth (and was pretty sad), that it was one novel which was hard to forget.I really love the concept of nine lives... and it's quite different to see it in a contemporary! You'd expect it to be in a paranormal (where it would quite literally be nine lives), but it's interesting to see how Dani's character explores her belief in her nine lives and how she can't be killed with multiple lives at hand.Reading other's reviews I could see that they didn't like Dani, so I was a little afraid of going into a book where I could end up hating the main character. Boy, I'm glad I didn't listen to them! I ended up LOVING Dani– she's so snarky, her sarcasm is hilarious. It really helped me get through the sadder bits of the book. She was always there to make it much more light-hearted despite the seriousness of the scene.Another thing I loved (and found hysterical) was Dani's constant teasing of Jack. I wish I had that confidence! Jack is pretty geeky, but he's really cute :) I loved him!Dani's family as well– her twin Jena, her Mom and her Dad– all contributed to the story very well. The father is hilarious! Could not stop laughing at all his awkward comments and hilarious cracks.The writing in this book, for me, really flowed. I was so swept with the detail and the easiness of the language, the way I got to connect with Dani was so simple! Wylie really seems to understand the teenage mind– she can tap into that emotion and feeling, and allow teens to follow along and enjoy the story for what it is.All These Lives was one of the best contemporaries which I've read this year! Truly a touching debut. I will, without a doubt be on the lookout for Sarah Wylie's next book, which I'm sure will be as good as this one, if not, even better.

  • Book Twirps
    2019-06-06 14:08

    Wow! What a powerful book. I must admit that I was a little thrown by the “nine lives” reference in the summary. I guess maybe I expected a touch of paranormal, or maybe magical realism here, kind of like Nova Ren Suma’s “Imaginary Girls”. The covers are very similar, but that’s where the similarity ends.Sixteen-year-old Dani is a bit jaded with life. Her fraternal twin, Jena, has cancer and she’s slowly wasting away right before Dani’s eyes. What Dani doesn’t understand is why she is always so lucky. She’s had several experiences where she should have been dead, but she manages to come out fine (hence the “nine lives” belief). Why was she blessed with all of the luck and not Jena?Dani is kind of a brat, and if the plot had been different, I probably would have hated her. She’s very sarcastic and acts almost as if she is entitled (mainly at school and around kids her own age). The beautiful thing about the book is how the author uses such strong, beautiful prose, which is a stark contrast to Dani’s personality. Since the story is told from Dani’s POV, this told me that Dani’s harsh personality was merely a protective shell, and inside there lives someone soft and a little fragile who is being protected by the tough exterior.I really enjoyed the family dynamics. The parents felt real and the relationships between the family members did as well. I loved how Dani’s fragility was more evident around her family, and the bond between she and Jena was nice.If any of you are turned off by the cancer aspect, don’t fret — this isn’t your typical cancer book. It felt different to me for some reason. It’s also not all doom and gloom and family drama. There are several humorous scenes as well as a little romance to balance it all out. My only real issue was that I was hoping for a little more closure in the end, but it wasn’t enough of a loose thread to leave me feeling cheated. This is a great book, and if you are a fan of contemporary dramas, I would recommend it.

  • ILoveBooks
    2019-05-21 15:26

    Dani has always been the lucky one. Her mother jokes that she and Dani have nine lives. What happens when her twin sister, Jena, contracts cancer and may not have nine lives. After all, she was never the lucky one.Dani chooses to deal with her sister's cancer in an unusual way. She goes out of her way to try to lose her lives, hoping that one of them might go to Jena. She undergoes ridiculous trials and lands herself in trouble and in the hospital, but she does not seem to care. The reader will follow this train wreck of a character throughout the book, an interesting plot of self-discovery and acceptance. It is interesting that the author manages to keep the book more about Dani and less about cancer; rather, she focuses on Dani and her love for her sister. The reader will likely love that this is not one of those cookie-cutter books where a family member loses a love one to cancer. Dani's character is the main draw to this novel. She is careless with her precious health, seeming to think herself invincible. The reader will get to know her quite well. Ironically, the reader barely knows Jena. Jena is viewed and thought of through the eyes of Dani. Dani's perspective and thoughts guide the reader through this novel. The other characters fit in perfectly. Dani acquires a love interest she never thought she would have, Dani's parents react to Jena's cancer in their own ways, and Dani's destructive way of dealing with Jena's cancer is only noticed by a couple of characters. The plot is interesting. We all would love to have nine lives, but not many of us would actually test that theory. The ending might not be what the reader may have guessed, but satisfying nonetheless. This book is highly recommended to young adult/teen readers.

  • Annette
    2019-06-12 20:08

    In a book market that seems to be inundated with books about cancer, All These Lives holds it own.Dani and Jena are twins. Jena is battling cancer, and is very sick. Deni has always been told by her mother that she has nine lives. As a way of coping with Jena's desperate situation, Dani tries to give some of her lives to Jena. She believes that if she gives up some lives, someone in the universe (hopefully Jena) will grab on to one of them. So Dani puts herself in some dangerous situations.It's really heartbreaking. Dani feels guilty because she's healthy. There's nothing she can do; she doesn't know how to handle this situation and her parents aren't helping very much.Don't get me wrong, the parents in All These Lives are THERE. They are doing everything they can for Jena and trying not to neglect Dani, but it's not easy. I felt the desperation. The chaos. The not knowing which way to turn. The heartbreak when Jena turns worse, the joy when she has a good day. All the while not understanding why Dani is behaving the way she is. Wylie writes these emotions with expertise.Jack is the main secondary character, and adds a little romantic tension. This isn't the main focus of All These Lives, but Jack helps Dani realize that she isn't the only one with problems. All These Lives is a pretty short book, but I still felt it lagged a bit in the middle. There was some down time where not much happened. But, it quickly picks up and it was never so bad that I wanted to give up.Dani does grow and learn. The ending isn't all tied up neatly, but there's some adjustments by everyone and things are more hopeful.This is an interesting contemporary about a topic pretty much everyone can relate to. Many teens will be interested in All These Lives and I won't hesitate to recommend it.

  • Majibookshelf Juhina & Farah
    2019-05-25 18:23

    All These Lives has a very emotional story wrapped up in a hard shell that is known as Dani. Dani's twin sister Jena has leukemia, and Dani doesn't know how to deal with it, so she avoids Jena. However, since Dani has been young, she has gotten into many near death experiences and escaped unscathed. Her mom kept on saying that she has 9 lives, nothing bad can happen to her Dani because she's apparently got lives to spare. Somehow Dani gets the idea that if she gets rid of some of these lives, at least one of them will get transferred to Jena and saves her life. While this aspect might seem paranormal, but the emotional turmoil Dani goes through, how fragile her family is. It was all so raw and real and just heart wrenching. I thoroughly enjoyed the family relationship. The mother that would do anything to save her sick child. The father who is trying to keep the glue that holds the family together but also sneaks outside for a cigarette or two. Dani, and finally Jena, the leukemia patient, but also a girl with a strong will to survive and to stay as Jena. I loved how nothing dramatic happened in the family, they are a typical family with a sick child. I really enjoyed how realistic it was. While Dani might have seemed like the tough one, she harbors deep feelings of guilt, sadness, and just being scared of how will she go on without Jena. I loved Sarah Wylie's writing. It was simple, honest, and just had that realistic feel to it. I thoroughly enjoyed the plot, the characters, and the overall story of All These Lives. I would recommend it to realistic YA lovers, and anyone looking for a story that speaks from the heart to your heart, because All These Lives did just that.

  • Juhina
    2019-06-10 14:29

    All These Lives has a very emotional story wrapped up in a hard shell that is known as Dani. Dani's twin sister Jena has leukemia, and Dani doesn't know how to deal with it, so she avoids Jena. However, since Dani has been young, she has gotten into many near death experiences and escaped unscathed. Her mom kept on saying that she has 9 lives, nothing bad can happen to her Dani because she's apparently got lives to spare. Somehow Dani gets the idea that if she gets rid of some of these lives, at least one of them will get transferred to Jena and saves her life. While this aspect might seem paranormal, but the emotional turmoil Dani goes through, how fragile her family is. It was all so raw and real and just heart wrenching. I thoroughly enjoyed the family relationship. The mother that would do anything to save her sick child. The father who is trying to keep the glue that holds the family together but also sneaks outside for a cigarette or two. Dani, and finally Jena, the leukemia patient, but also a girl with a strong will to survive and to stay as Jena. I loved how nothing dramatic happened in the family, they are a typical family with a sick child. I really enjoyed how realistic it was. While Dani might have seemed like the tough one, she harbors deep feelings of guilt, sadness, and just being scared of how will she go on without Jena. I loved Sarah Wylie's writing. It was simple, honest, and just had that realistic feel to it. I thoroughly enjoyed the plot, the characters, and the overall story of All These Lives. I would recommend it to realistic YA lovers, and anyone looking for a story that speaks from the heart to your heart, because All These Lives did just that.

  • Mesa
    2019-06-07 15:11

    All These Lives is a very interesting book. I really enjoyed it. Our main character, Dani, is a character that every woman will love. She’s sarcastic, funny, and a loving person (even though she tried to hide it). The author did an amazing job creating such a character.Dani thinks she has nine lives, and her twin, Jena, is a cancer patient. So Dani thinks she can save her sister by giving her one of her lives. The journey Dani go through to save her sister is dangerous, yet she willed herself to do everything in her power to save Jena. I liked Dani, sometimes she can be too much, but I liked her. I liked her voice and what she represented. Jena and her parents also played a great role in this book. I enjoyed seeing the family relationship before Jena was diagnosed with cancer and after. This book might deal with cancer and cancer patient, but it’s not all the book talks about. It’s about the people around the cancer patient, what they go through when their loved ones are diagnosed with cancer. I really liked that aspect of the book, it gives a glimpse of what people go through when a person they know and love is diagnosed with cancer. To be completely honest, I don’t have any clue about the genre of this book. So don’t go into this book thinking it’s only contemporary because it’s not - well at least I don’t think it is. The nine lives theory made this book seem like a part paranormal.All in all, All These Lives by Sarah Wylie is a great book. I truly enjoyed it, and I recommend it.

  • Anya Zhang
    2019-06-08 18:33

    To me, this book makes me have mixed feelings. It has powerful language, but sometimes I want to throw a chair at Dani for the choices that she makes. There's no question that this book has a meaningful message, and I made me learn from Dani's experiences. The only thing I didn't like about the story was that the plot kind of switched off sometimes and Dani never really learned from her choices until the very end.

  • Callie Berrett
    2019-05-30 20:29

    Heart-wrenching and beautiful.

  • Emily Towle
    2019-05-30 12:16

    this book was really confusing and I personly didn't like it

  • Luthien
    2019-05-17 17:24

    Danielle Bailey's mother has always told her that she has nine lives. Now that her fraternal twin sister Jena has leukemia, the possibility that she has “extra” lives is all that Dani can think about. She begins going downhill emotionally, academically, and socially as she struggles to cope with Jena's illness and her inability to do anything about it. Desperate to help her sister and feeling guilty for her own perfect health, Dani puts herself in ever-more dangerous situations in hopes that Jena can somehow “catch” one of her lost lives and recover.Yeah, it's a cancer book. Sort of, anyway.Fortunately, the book is really about Dani and her journey for the most part. Despite being a first-person narrator, she had such a hard shell that it was very difficult to get inside her head and connect with her or know her in any meaningful way. Her main personality trait was Snarkiness. That isn't all that uncommon in YA, but Dani was a bit of a mean girl to boot. (That said, I don't think she was as much of a bitch and a bully as she claimed to be—maybe I was just giving her the benefit of the doubt, though.) Her voice was interesting—though not all that unique among YA MCs—at first. After a few chapters, though, it lost some of its charm.Despite the fact that I prefer softer, sweeter, more intelligent heroines, I thought Dani was kind of refreshing, especially since she was neither very interested in school nor, it seemed, very smart. A lot of YA authors I've read make their heroines brilliant, hard-working, almost-Valedictorian-types.Part of the reason I felt so forgiving was that, to me, Dani was a very troubled young woman who was not receiving the help she needed. She felt crushing guilt for being unable to help Jena, for being the “bad”/“bitchy” sister and still being the healthy one, which manifested in suicidal behavior. She buried these thoughts under the misguided belief that she had more than one life to lose.That's not to say her parents neglected her, though. Even for the parents of a cancer patient, the Baileys did their best to pay attention to both of their daughters. They were head-and-shoulders above most YA parents—as in, they were a) meaningfully involved in their children's lives, and b) they almost had real personalities. Even if Mr. Bailey was sort of a stereotypical quiet-but-caring father. They even had the wherewithal to put Dani in counseling for valid reasons. Too little, too late, but they did notice Dani's downward spiral, and they did care.And I have to admit that Mr. Bailey was kind of cute:The first boy to ever throw rocks at my window late at night is tall with dark tufts of brown hair, eyes a little too close together, and a two-day shadow. He doesn't serenade me—he can't play the guitar-and he doesn't help me climb out, shushing me as I giggle, entangled by bushes and my own feet. This boy is hardly worth coming down for at all, but I owe him.He's my father.… Where is Spencer and the boom box he will use to prove how sorry he is for picking Candy over me? Where is Johnny Depp? At this point, even Jack Penner would do. It's just my luck that it's my father, and he's refusing to disappear. (147)Jena had a personality once, but it was almost all swallowed by her Cancer Patient persona. That was part of the point—that Dani missed her sister desperately even while she was still alive. Nevertheless, it made me sad, and it made Jena rather dull.The most compelling character other than Dani was Jack Penner, her geeky-but-cute classmate and sort-of-love-interest. I wish he and his relationship with Dani had each been more fully developed. Jack helped to soften Dani a little. He encouraged her to come out of her shell. But there was not anywhere near enough of him.The space taken up by Dani's former best friend Lauren and by Dani's pointless interactions with “bad boy” Spencer and wannabe Goth-girl Candy/Kandi would have been better spent on Jack or Jena or on Dani herself—or really on anyone other than those three flat characters, none of whom had any impact on the plot. Lauren even had a subplot that just wasted ink and paper.Not that there was that much of a plot to speak of. The book begins in the middle of Jena's illness and of the school year. The story drags on for a long time after what must be the climax, but with no clear conclusion. I hardly expected some kind of neat, tidy “happy ending,” but this one petered out and died.Dani, however, did learn some things, and I believe she did grow as a character. I can't say I found her sympathetic, but I did feel sorry for her. I wanted her to get the help she needed, and I was cheering for her relationship with Jack. And she did have some endearing moments with her sister.All in all, it was a solid three-star book.

  • Melissa (i swim for oceans)
    2019-06-07 12:15

    View the full review here:'s lucky. She seems to avoid death every chance she gets. Jena, her twin, however, is not so lucky. While Dani seems to thwart death's attempts to capture her, Jena's cancer is causing her to knock at death's door, and there is nothing that anybody can do about it. Or can they? Convinced that she has multiple lives and that she, alone, holds the key to her sister's survival, Dani sets about finding a way to give her sister her multiple lives. But life isn't so cut and dried, and sometimes the best of intentions can't even save us in the end.All These Lives presents a challenge for many a YA reader. Offering what could be a very tried-and-true take on contemporary fiction by giving us a novel that centers around cancer, the book winds us in with a careful, steady hand until we're unable to let go. Author, Sarah Wylie, takes a unique approach to the book though. Rather than offering readers bittersweet sentimentality and saccharine sadness, she gives us a main character that's losing hope, a family that's falling apart and a world that's every bit as bleak as you might think. All These Lives is a maelstrom of emotions, but it leaves the cliches at the door and welcomes you wholeheartedly into reality.I took my sweet time reading this story, though I've had the book on my shelf for over a year now. It's not that I didn't love the premise though. It's merely the fact that cancer is a tricky topic to tackle in young adult fiction. I find that, more often that not, we get either super sad, tacky and, ultimately irrelevant tales. Or, we're given a story that spins you into a web of flawless prose and literary prowess. All These Lives kind of takes the road less traveled in this respect. It leaves the shock value at the door and, instead, gives us the bleak, cold-hearted truths of this deadly disease through the story of a flawed, but relatable, main character. Dani was a tricky character to get a handle on at first. She never seemed to be able to make up her mind, and her own story is riddled with indecision. At first, it made it difficult to relate to her because I wanted her to just make up her dang mind. However, we slowly watch as she makes mistake after mistake, and we realize that that is the true beauty of her character. Her recklessness is her remedy to the pain and fear that she feels toward her sister's disease. Furthermore, the reactions and interactions between all the characters within the novel felt genuine and real. We watch as her mother turns to prayer to save herself from pain, her father withdraws from it all and Dani is just masking every ounce of pain with attitude and fierce pride. I will admit that All These Lives had a bit of a slow start for me though. The author writes in very subtle and carefully crafted prose that seems slow just for the sake of being slow at first. However, as I moved on through the novel, it began to resonate more. The writing, though quiet and and rather minimalist is in stark contrast to much of the rest of the genre, giving it a truly honest and pure narrative to a bleak, hopeless story.Overall, I was ultimately impressed with All These Lives. Despite the fact that it took me a bit to get into the story, I think it was ultimately really well done, and I look forward to reading more from the author. I give it a 4 out of 5, and I recommend it to fans YA, especially those who enjoy realistic contemporary fiction. I received this book free of charge from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. This, in no way, affected my opinion or review of this book.

  • Daisy
    2019-06-05 15:21

    All These Lives is a hard novel for me to review, because it deals with a subject I don't normally read about, but something that I encounter in my line of work: cancer. And it was unsettling for me, mainly because I usually avoid plots like this one. But, having said that, I must also say that I'm glad I decided to pick it up.From the summary I'd thought this book would focus more on the nine-lives thing Dani think she's got going on. It does at times, but it's mostly a story about Dani and how she's dealing or not dealing with her twin sister having leukemia. And I'm absolutely not saying it's a bad thing, but it required some adjusting on my account. I loved Dani. She's funny and sarcastic and a bit of a bully at times, but she's also honest with herself about the things she can and can't do. She can't bear to watch her sister be sick and sometimes she doesn't want to spend time with Jena because of this. She's scared of her sister dying and she loves her very much. She can be a bit brutal, but I liked it. I felt for her through all of it, her concern for her sister, the troubles she has at school and with her parents and the boy she meets who's more than he seems. I was glad that there's an undercurrent of 'might-be-love-interest', but that it wasn't by any means the focus of the story. At the beginning of the novel it feels like Dani is just acting out, trying to find a way to deal with her sister being sick, but the mindblowingly awful things she starts doing later on are actually part of her way of trying to 'help' Jena. She genuinely believes that every time she 'dies', Jena gets better. And it seems like it, but OMG, I just wanted to shake her and hug her and tell her to not hurt herself anymore! I thought the dynamics in the family itself were very realistic. I could see parents dealing with one of their kids being sick like this. Everyone has a different coping mechanism, and while the ones employed here aren't necessarily the best ones, I could see it happen. I never really felt much of anything for Dani's mother, except sadness, but I loved her father. He's trying to make the best of it and trying to create happy memories when all Dani's mother wants to do is control everything. I get her reaction, but it never felt more true than when Dani's father says something along the lines of that even though Jena's sick, she still deserves to go out sometime and have fun with her sister. It's something a lot of people forget.Also, I really liked Jack. The boy that isn't a real love interest at the moment, but might be in the future when Dani's life isn't upside down anymore. He's sweet and has dealt with his own share of worries for his family. I didn't think much of Dani's best friend Lauren, she seemed a bit weird and living in her own world and not very supportive. I would have liked there to have been a bit more about the bond between Jena and Dani, more scenes from their childhood together and what kind of person Jena was before she became sick. I feel like I don't know Jena very well after reading this book and I was still waiting on learning more about her when I turned the last page.While this is a tough subject for me to read about, All These Lives is not a depressing book. It's mostly a sister and the rest of the family dealing with one of their own facing the reality of actually dying and it's heartbreaking, but there's also a sense of hope, they haven't give up. Despite my usual shying away from book dealing with things like this, I'm very glad I picked All These Lives up!My rating: 4 stars

  • Kah Cherub
    2019-06-04 19:05

    Read complete review here: Dani has survived a couple of situations in which she was very close to dying during her younger years, and she also remembers her mother telling her, in a playful way, that she takes after herself. That she is the girl with nine lives. Now, she's older and has to see her fraternal twin, Jana, go through the most horrible treatments for cancer. She can't even help by donating her marrow, because, incredibly, they're not compatible. But Dani is convinced she can help in another way. She has nine lives. Enough lives to spare. So she decides she'll throw a few of them up into the universe, hoping her sister will be able to 'capture' them and get better. But by doing so, she manages to push away the few friends she still has and to convince everyone she's trying to kill herself. But they don't understand. She's just trying to save her sister.Her parents are trying very hard to act like things are normal, like nothing much has changed, but everything has. Jena specially. Dani can hardly recognize her sister anymore. She's so small, so weak, so sick and defeated. The smallest fever can bring her down, and she has almost daily visits to the hospital. At school, Jana's old friends act like she never even existed, and Dani can't stand that. So she finds comfort in teasing/bullying her classmate Jack when she feels like talking or just hanging out with her only friend, Lauren, (who just can't shut up) when she feels like losing herself in her thoughts. She also hangs out with bad boy Spencer, who seems to like her quite a bit, but quickly manages to push him away when she decides to crash his Harley for one of her soul 'deliveries'. Even though she still goes to school and random auditions to please her parents, Dani has really given up on studying and acting. Both things she used to be very good at. But now she has other priorities in life. Like trying to lose her lives.I loved this cover. From the minute I saw it I knew I had to read this book. And it was SO good! I normally try to avoid much drama, but Danielle was such a complex character. She's trying so hard to pretend she's okay, that she's not freaking out on the inside about the possibility of losing her sister any day now. On the outside she tries to look like a very funny, very carefree person, (and she has some really great humorous quotes! Cracked me up quite a bit), but we can see she's trying too hard. I really, really liked her. And Jana, the poor girl, was so sweet, also trying to hide how pissed and depressed she was about the disease. They broke my heart.I'm not one for very dramatic and sad books, but once in a while a gem like this attracts me and I can't help but let it take over my life for a couple of hours. Probably because I always forget that after all the suffering, they usually leave me a feeling like having one's soul somewhat... lighter. Sarah Wylie is a very talented writer. She sucks you into the story, she honestly makes you care about the characters and feel what they're feeling. There's no better way to read a story than to feel like you're part of it. Too bad we can't change it.If you like your YA with realistic fiction, dramatic family issues and very well-written characters and situations, you'll be blown away by All these Lives.* I received an eARC from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.*

  • Keren Hughes
    2019-05-18 19:20

    Originally posted on my blog: http://gothicangelbookreviews.blogspo...ALL THESE LIVES is a hauntingly beautiful story. I was reminded of when I read My Sister's Keeper last year. It's definitely a book that you should keep a pack of tissues handy!Dani is a fraternal twin. Her sister Jena has leukemia. The story is told from Dani's point of view and we see what it's like to live in a family where the sister is ill and the mother and father seem blind to anything that doesn't revolve around the sick daughter. That means that Dani seems to go unnoticed. Particularly by her mother.Dani comes across as bitchy and maybe a bit self centred in the beginning. She taunts a boy in class by flirting with him and embarrassing him. She does things like that just because she can.But having thought that she was a bit spiteful, I soon learned that actually, she's acting out. She's not getting much attention from anyone because everyone is always asking about Jena, taking care of Jena. No-one seems to stop and say "How are you feeling about things Dani?" "How's things Dani?" It's almost like she's invisible.But there's more to this story than that.Dani is sure that she has 9 lives. Or that she did have before she used a couple of them up in instances that perhaps any other person may have died. She survived a car accident. She survived a bad infection. Someone once told her that a cat has 9 lives and that each one they lose goes off into the universe for another cat to catch.Having this theory in mind, Dani thinks that if she loses her lives, the ones that leave her may find their way to Jena. All Dani wants is for her sister to live. She says that without her, she wouldn't live either. So Dani does stupid things to try and give her lives to her.We see her drunk and stupid enough to get into the pool at home where she stays until her father finds her and drags her out. 1 life down. Will Jena feel better?There's 2 sides to the things she does though. 1) She believes that she'll lose a life and Jena will catch it and 2) She's acting out. You're not sure which of the 2 is the reason she does them. Even though she says it's for Jena, and yes it is - also, you can see that she is just a lonely girl who wants some of the attention that seems to rain down on Jena. I love Dani as an MC. She's not a flawless image of a perfect sister, daughter, friend. No, she's got her flaws alright. But that's okay because she's only human. None of us can be accused of being perfect. She tries to be a good daughter - going to auditions because it's what her mother wants. Not telling her mother about her father smoking again because it's his only vice and it's something he does through stress over Jena. She tries to be a good sister by giving her extra lives to Jena. So although we see her as a bit snarky, we also find that she has a good heart and tries to help people, even though it's at cost to herself. I won't lie, I had to cry at this story. It's very well written and has a beautiful, fluid, haunting storyline. It's one of those books that you read and no matter what you read after it, it's still going to be stuck in your mind. Sarah Wylie is definitely an author I will be looking out for more from in the future. Thank you to Macmillan and Net Galley for providing me this ARC. Thank you to Sarah Wylie for writing something so unusual in today's YA market.

  • Hannah
    2019-06-16 14:13

    This book really surprised me! I wasn't expecting much, and honestly, the cover is the main reason I read this book. (Underwater covers get me every time.) The idea sounded kind of strange to me, but I thought I'd give it a try anyways. And I'm glad I did - I really enjoyed All These Lives!I still think the whole idea of the nine lives is kind of strange. I just don't get how you could think something like that, how that could seem like a reasonable way to help someone, and I can't imagine anyone really doing that. But even though that appears to be the main idea of the book - that's what the title refers to; it's the main focus of the description; and the novel is split into parts for each of Dani's 'life' - for me, it wasn't really about the nine lives. It was about Dani.And Dani, I loved. Oh, Dani. I didn't like her, but I kind of loved her. I know, that doesn't make any sense, but it's true. I don't think I would like her if I knew her in real life - actually, I'm pretty sure she would completely piss me off - but I loved reading from her POV, and I really grew to love her. She's a rude, selfish bitch, but there's just something about her. She's a unique character, always speaks her mind, and says the most ridiculous things. Her sense of humor is random, weird, and quirky, in an awesome way, and she had me laughing out loud. She's not the typical MC I like reading about and relate to, but I loved her.I also loved the romance. It's not the main storyline by a long shot - which I appreciate, since nothing's worse than forcing romance on a book that doesn't need any - but it's the one I spent the most time obsessing over. I'm pretty sure the romance was written with the sole intent of torturing me. I have two favorite types of love interests: Mysterious Loner Guy and Quiet Nerdy Guy. And this book has both. Which is awesome, but which also means that I had to choose between the two! Which is impossible. I did end up choosing Quiet Nerdy Guy, though - but that might just be because Mysterious Loner Guy mysteriously (ha!) disappears halfway through the book and just doesn't play an important role anymore. But, anyways, I loved the romance, and the chemistry is amazing. I'm not even sure why, since Jack (Quiet Nerdy Guy) is not the best, most complex character or anything like that, but I just loved him with Dani. They are so freaking adorable together! I just wanted to squeal of adorable-ness.The writing flows nicely, and it's the perfect balance between fun and emotional. Despite the heavy subject matter, this book is pretty light - most of it is humorous and just fun to read. But in between, there are touching, emotional scenes and a few sentences that make you stop and think.I would have liked some parts to be a little more fleshed out, and I would have liked to know more about some of the secondary characters (why does Mysterious Loner Guy have to suddenly disappear? I want to know more!). I still think the idea is kind of werid, but I also kind of loved this book. It's quirky, unique, and fun, but still touching and emotional when it needs to be. I don't know whether this book is for everyone, since I can definitely see people having a problem with Dani, but I loved her, and I loved this book.Reviewed at http://www.paperbacktreasures.blogspo...